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My case impossible

I want, but I can not live this feeling
I decided to give up my feelings, my heart is in the deepest sorrow for having made this decision because we know that we can not carry out this story that more forward will make us suffer.

Is not easy, choosing the right words to my heart understand why this attitude. Among turn a feeling into something possible less painful, and not live a forbidden case: prefer open new paths so you can not lose it.

Part of me was in trouble, did not know what to do, my little heart fell in love with someone who can not be mine. I can not simply meet the desires of a passion, a desire, I will be going against the one who gave me the chance to live a dignified and happy life, I would be against everything you taught me.

My soul lives an enormous anguish. My looks, reflect the sadness of not being able to do what they want, live a beautiful love story with impossible my case, my gestures reveal my restless heart, distressed, beating strongly accelerated. I can not hide what I feel for him, is visible for all to see.

Yes, I love him with all my soul, and would do anything not to harm you, because I know you love what you do. It would not be fair to make him suffer, give up all his achievement, would be the key piece to their demoralization, not ever want to carry me all this guilt. Therefore, the decision to give up this passion, this love that consumes me every day.

When I see him on Sunday mornings, fulfilling their duty, I am attentive in the words you say, in his teachings find answers to not do anything wrong. My will, then, was to go towards him and give him a big hug, I held my impulse not to cause you confusion and unwanted whispers, crave wholeheartedly your good will.

I realized that my forbidden love, found that completely fell in love with him, you know my feelings, yet not moved away, decided to continue with my counselor friend of every hour. When you call me for a conversation between two adults, I admit that I was nervous and did not know what to say at that time, therefore, I kept my word and did not run away from the situation.

In our conversation, my eyes shone like the stars of heaven, my hands were frozen and trembling with nervous, it was then that I decided to sit down to not give many blunders, as was apparent that she could not hide. The silence was broken by me, I took action and decided to make him the question that both wanted to make a long time:

Friend counselor, how can I turn all this feeling I feel for you? I do not want and do not think to do him harm. He simply, with its enormous and understandable heart, answered me with all affection: Just look at me different, as it did before.

Pilar Mariosa Bastos da Silva

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